sighhs. theres nth happy to blog about. but then sadness &boredom's killing me. i have no choice but to come &blog. today was speech day. nth special. but its definitely a different year. cos i decided to quit GOH and instead volunteer to be a spectator.

school ended early. so dropped by the library with peishan, liting &bernice to look for recipes for our o level f&n. my neck almost broke &i still couldnt find any suitable recipes. I WANNA GO DIE ALREADY :( then went back school to watch speech day. actually didnt want to go one. but needa produce MC if absent i think. so was lyk being FORCED to go. yeah. anyways its the last year already. so yarh. speech by P was super boring. can fall asleep. overall NP did very well. cos they are all my darlings.

stayed back awhile &then decided to go home. annie was kind to ask me if i wanted to take her mum's car home. but nah. i needed to think about some things, so strolled home slowly. walking alone on the streets at night somehow clears my mind &heart, &i can think better. but there are still troubles bothering me. &no matter how hard i try, it just wont go away. sighhs.

IT'S TOUGH; IT'S PAINFUL; BUT I'LL NVR GIVE UP.


SUNDAYS! urghh. the most boring day of the week :(
met up with annie &peishan to go study at the library yesterday. &to search for cookbooks too. practically read up every one but not one suitable recipe for my f&n. sob.
then went to town to walk walk. but then the stupid heels were killing me. blisters &everything. yesterday was nth to talk about larh. cos our wallets were empty. HAHHAHS.

my dad just took out some very old documents. lyk his report card?! both my parents failed science. its in the genes. no wonder i failed too (: then found some really interesting stuff. lyk what a fengshui master wrote for me back then. he chose my chinese name. hahhahs. what bothers me is that he wrote that i would quarrel with my husband at 28 &things will get worst when i turn 33. &omigosh. i think i'll live up till 68! lols. hard life. &i wanna change my destiny. probably avoiding all those fights &quarrels. well. it says that im prone to sickness lyk flu. &thats true. &the worst comes is i'll probably be very VERY ill when i turn 43.

hope none of all that comes true. cause im so afraid now. well! a step at a time.
they say "船到桥头自然直" &just let nature takes it course :D

HELLO.
today was bored. cos i didnt go school. neither did i yesterday. URGGHH. blocked nose, sore throat &headaches. so went to see doctor. &that what straits time thingy. somebody surveyed me. hmmm. will my name appear in there? hahhs.

as usual. slept lyk a pig all the way till 1230. bet i cant fall asleep tonight already. that sucks. cos i have to wake up early tmr morning. NTUC shopping with my parents. &im gonna grab all the tidbits agn =x

gotta go. TOODLES.

ARGHH. im so freaking sick agn. lyk how many times do i fall sick in one year?
most probably 10 tyms. okays. i honestly duno too.
&there's so many pple around me who are sick. &i think i caught it from either one of them.

my throat's feeling so uncomfortable now. so talking makes my throat very pain. &i feel lyk URGHH. sawing off my whole throat now. okkayys. thats disgusting. but maybe i'll try doing that. HAHAHS.

now let's see. so darn lazy to do my f&n. mr ong says by nxt friday we have to complete our development, planning &decision planning. BY NXT FRIDAY. lyk if we dont complete it, we'll just stay behind after school from 14may onwards all the way to 7pm. i duno if hes kidding anot. but i think i can just die.

aiyarh. last but not least hope i dont die from the stress from f&n.
buhbyes people. ((: